now

current overarching focuses and feelings really. or maybe just what i'm up to!
as per nownownow.

last updated: may 02 2024 (site to-do updated may 04)
may spout things more on the go on my thoughts.page

(used to have this sorted by days/weeks/months/years haha)

current to-do for my site (in my phone memo)

links page maintenance
- sort more granularly
picrews ~~maintenance~~ (done for the time being) and maybe additions
go further into things in the uses section of about (add images :-D)
observation 002, maybe from the insta archives still
- maybe turn 001 into a001 (i.e. archive), and just compile a true 001 sometime
creations branch adjustments
- archival section for pixel emotes i used to make and upload to deviantart?
- emoji edits descriptions, coding tweaks, additions
heading tweaks (maybe?)
oliponders adjustments
- add the sc flips-of-oli list somewhere and bring out personal favs of it
try make smile style cursor somehow show up on mobile (prolly need to do some js magick)
little page or some such off the smilezine asterisks-and-lines doodle, incorporating lil specific moments the song may have accompanied me in or made me think of
localize the initial lastfm link in smilezine (before lastfm made it so u have to be logged in to view anyone's non-alltime stats), as a little within-page pop-up thing
~~make the ouch style More Terrible colours-wise. maybe migrate away from the outset bordering a bit?~~ i did not know i had the feist to do something this terrible
~~tweak hr/hrlite styling so it'd adopt the seasonal colours within seasonal <details> entities~~ fixed i think
switch guestbook?
~~move music event travelogs to event log~~ done :-]

physical existence

miniorchid status: 7 blooms up (4 + 2 + 1), 11 spent
slowly reading books borrowed from the library, currently got 3 at hand, incl one to return sometime. nextmost to read might be the book disco elysium was sorta based on (sacred and terrible air by robert kurvitz), tho ive never played the game and dont intend to
mundaneity of work, peak season is well on, pretty busy on farmers market times
spring seems to be here - the wind is chilly, but the sun is warm
want to go through my belongings, see what to give away, what to tinker with...
occasional meeting with some friend or other irl - glad about that
entertaining the thought of going thru with trying to learn to ride a bike this year Maybe (or in the next few years), but it would require me to acquire a bike and protective gear, and find a way to store that shit ideally in my room lol

i cleaned up my ublock custom filters list the other night. currently i block out the servers list on discord (which i strictly use thru browser atm), the whole posts feed on insta (at times), numbers and other detritus on twitter (accidentally breaks some things), and stats stuff in neocities feedstuffs... brain feels too rotten otherwise.
lowkey incinerating my public-facing tumblr posts/reblogs, i have an archive pre-this that i might want to do something with in the future
want to clear out some in my pics-taken-with-phone folder...
want to try contain my online existence more to my laptop again
want to sort thru and clean out my files as well...
can u see im in some kind of subtractive mood w my online existence lol

ambiently frustrated by the current state of things in the world, while having to deal with the mundane everyday. i really really dont know where to put my energy with all this
been in this intense ebb with listening to new music, and music in general really. think i'm recharging
oli xl special interest undercurrent strong as ever, though the actual listening ebbs and flows, as per my last.fm (though it doesn't catch whenever i might be listening to either of the possible lick-the-lens-era unreleased tune recordings ive got from across his dj sets etc haha)

workin at a gardening supplies shop since '21, after dropping out of uni in '20, don't care about academia enough to return to such to any degree... might want something less peoplefaced as job in future tho, but this works ok for now
still living with my parents (did live mostly apart during hs and uni), saving up for eventual move-out, but right now this mostly hinges on my senior cat, and the current config is best for her availability-of-people-wise