now
current overarching focuses and feelings really. or maybe just what i'm up to!
as per nownownow.
last updated: nov 05 2024
sometimes spout things more on the go on my thoughts.page
current to-do for my site
- links page: maintenance
- links page: go thru all the personal sites, maybe sort into those i more actively (want to) look at [would be rather few cos of my limited energytime...] and the rest -> [oct13] process underway
- picrews page: maintenance (last on aug 8 '24) and maybe additions
- smilepage: decorative "binding" for the "page" pairs?
- uses section: update the pic of the case collage of my phone
- oliponders: add list of stray songs into the scratches-similar-itches bit?
- smilepage: caringly play around with thoughts for this year's big round ^-^
archive of done bits of the to-do
details script: do i need it on the site (or at least in notebook)? ponder about it.[oct20] removed from notebook, for now at leastnotebook: move all the images into notebook folder (some are currently in journal folder)[oct13] donemainstyle: cute cursors for this one too[oct10] done :-)oliponders: adjacent heartwarmth 4 'smile[oct8] initiated i supposesmilepage: experiment w if i can pull off some interactive img[oct6] i could!! :-osmilestyle: more distinct pointer cursor[oct4] done and rlly happy with it <3observations: float the numberings someplace[oct3] done!
self
general
- too much flow of information, too little whimsy?
- trying to be mindful of how i spend my energy. otherwise too jittery to focus on much and fuse becomes short
- caught in the whirlwind of everyday mundaneity, mostly
- occasional meeting with some friend or other irl - glad about that
- ebb and flow with checking new music. the backlogs have been getting attention sometimes, barely listen to anything on my own volition other times.
- oli xl special interest undercurrent strong as ever, stupidly-or-not enough
specific
- been a little too overwhelmed to actively comb thru my stuff irl? but lowkey wanna rearrange my room a bit too, kick up some dormant energy...
- 1 library book at hand, about estonian word formation (that i have as pdf too but lending the physical book for my eyes' sake. for mere curiosity really).
- had cute times at rift xl this past weekend :-)
surroundings
- autumnal. leaves fallen, but still mostly above freezing.
- miniorchid status: 3 blooms open (2 + 1), plenty few coming from 2 stalks :,)
- [mid-oct: 1 bloom open]
- the small quiet everyday in hereabouts...
longterm contexts
- world is and continues to be fucked up. goof-ass duality, both pain and beauty, and i barely know how to hold both at the same time
- workin at a gardening supplies shop, as a uni dropout, don't care about academia enough to return to such to any degree. might want something less peoplefaced as job in future tho, but this works ok for now
- still living with my parents (did live mostly apart during hs and uni), saving up for eventual move-out, i feel like a wind-up toy being held in place. but right now this mostly hinges on my senior cat, and the current config is best for her availability-of-people-wise